I Wonder What's Happening

There has been some major changes recently and I think the chain of events has really been bothering me to an extend that it's kinda disturbing.

I've decided to put myself into a total new environment and lifestyle and on top of that, some things have made me think twice of my self worth.

Now I understand when people decide to put all their efforts into work which has a much higher guaranteed returns, compared to putting effort into relationships which is purely a 50:50 chance. Worse of all is when you know that the 50% return is beyond your control. That, totally makes my stomach churn...

Tough enough that in this constant livelihood treadmill that you have to work your arse off. On top of that, one has to find that person to share/ease the burden n triumphs. It's been tedious and it seems that more often than not, it appears that my exterior superseeds my personality. I'm not exactly a boring person but maybe because I appear a tough chick that is game for anything exciting and is totally capable of walking away anytime its required that there are a certain sort of people I attract.

Well, I guess it's time I think seriously about how I want things to be and call the shots. In anyway case, it's either I get upset now or later and I might just not be ready to take the high risk to wish things happen as I'd prefer.

Time to throw in the towel maybe. Or it might be be PMS & Cordon Bleu thinking on my behalf. Tragic...

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Dont' Cry cos it's Over. Smile cos it Happened.

I'm living the last few days of my current employment after 4 years and I truely so can't bear to leave. This has been my 2nd home since I smoked my way through the interview n nabbed the job. The rest was history as I worked my arse off learning whatever I could. My favourite guys have to be Spannerworks from Malaysia and as a tribute to their support, I wrote them a long long long farewell note:

Dear Spannerworks,

It's been the best 4 working years of my life working with you guys as my partners in SPE Networks but hte time has come for me to say goodbye here. In one of my final work email to you guys, I would like to sincerely thank you for all the undying support:

1. Been absolutely accomodating to my last minute requests & changes (I know I'm not the worst but still… thx!)
2. Patiently entertaining my price-slashing, calculator-punching, past quotation comparing phone conversations and how we always miraculously manage to sqeeze the budget down. (Fiq, I still remember the phone conversation whr u got disgusted hearing my calculator in the background)
3. Fulfilling my constant need to push ourselves to come up with new, exciting ideas. (TN, thanks for the beautiful stage for Fashionability under tight budget)
4. Tolerating my super-anal, fine details perfectionism (Jac, sorry I had to arrange the Mannaquins, display stands etc at Fashionability to the perfect angle)
5. Finally letting me et hands-on during set-ups! (Godfrey, thanks for the initial attempts to always bring me away for supper. Guess you've realised tht I'll come back for set up anyway and Jac has learnt to 'screw this client lah… she don't do anything will die one')
6. Letting me plan n execute though I must have gotten in your way times (Jac, don't u just love me now for planning the race route , writing the letters, contacting the merchants etc?)
7. For daring to take the plunge with me and take up new exciting projects that could possibly be doomed-to-fail (a. Animax Fashion-ability with the 30min production n everything else done in house from music to runway show sequence, b. Animax Youth Fest that was super last min, total low budget and clueless on Cosplay competition with zero contacts c. Penang Beach Challenge, still don't kw hw the F we pulled that shit off when we spend 30min talking biz on recce trip and 2 whole days eating and our boy getting stung by jellyfish during set up)
8. Listening to me bitch about office character n workload (Sorry if I had influenced anyone's judgement but am sure experience tells itself :D)
9. Volunteering to help me at no cost whenever possible (I cannot express how many extra miles you guys have travelled for me, just to help me get the job done.)
10. All the freebies I got (from additional manpower, extra sound n lights, bunting stands, 4x8 frames, projector, screen… whatever I find existing in the store!)
    
    
    
    I'll always remember these notable SPE projects with Spanner:
    

• Phuket Trade Event - My 1st Spanner encounter
• M'sia AXN Challenge - Where I lost 5kgs in 2 weeks
• Kung Fu Hussle Premiere Tour - 1st time Godfrey see my straight face whn dancers couldn’t dance!
• Endau Rompin Trade Event - Delicious Prawns with fried rice (note: not fried rice w prawns) :p
• AXN Mall Challenge - 1st project with Fiq that involves lowering eggs at rainforest area to god kws what else… Cut paper in SWTec office till pass midnight n thot Jac was irritating to not help n went home instead (didn't kw her yet)
• Animax Press Launch - Forced Fiq to do the LED effect on mannequin by threatening to do it myself :p. The event that 1st created the Animax light box that's been recycled for 3 yrs!
• Penang Beach Challenge - To stop rain, we were suppose to use red chilli padi but those bought were half green. Ended up by mid-day it started to rain. Was happy we had excuse to cut event short)
• Animax Youth Festival - Almost a doomed-to-fail project having the shortest prep time, tiny budget, lousy entreprenuer idea we were forced to execute and head-banging Cosplay organisers. Can almost hate this event!
• Animax Fashion-ability - Once of my favourite events to date w 2 mths of consequetive wkends in KL filming, meetings, talking, planning… The most beautiful event. Will not forget how my cue to start the show "Let's Roll" totally confused Jackie. Haa haa haa…… I'm from TV biz rite? TV always stylo what…
• Sentosa Trade Party - Working on my faithful b'day but later celebrated with more than 150 ppl on Rasa Beach

… N the Parties continued
· Penang
· Phuket
· Ho Chih Min x 2 (or was it 3?)
· Cambodia - Happy pizza n totally sick like shit!
· KL, KL, KL


So, after all the blunders, struggles, fun, laughters and sleepless nights, I'll be looking forward to embarking on a different relationship with SWTec and hope that my place for your corporate retreats will not be replaced so soon… :D


P.S. Last day is on the 25th May so anything outstanding, please say now. (meant to be fine prints that ppl don’t read so I can chill my days away)

Within the next day, they all replied with such touching messages that I really hate leaving. At least I know I'll still be going on trips with them and enjoying their support in future. Luuurve u guys to death!

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Off Those Lights & Save the Earth

I'm concerned about my surrounding greens so am definitely going to be part of the Earth Hour. Maybe I'll just hibernate in bed that night out be out drinking somewhere in the dark?

Earth day is pretty to easy to observe. Just off the lights! But living in Asia, World Water Day on 22 March will be a little tough. No bathing? I can already think of someone who will be so suffering no will NOT be able to celebrate World Water Day :)


Earth Hour 2009
On March 28, at 8:30 pm local time, one billion people will go dark for Earth Hour. World Wildlife Fund is asking individuals, businesses, governments and organizations around the world to turn off their lights to make a global statement of concern about climate change and to demonstrate commitment to finding solutions.

Already hundreds of icons and landmarks around the world have signed up to turn their lights off for Earth Hour 2009 including - the Eiffel Tower in Paris, Sydney Opera House, Acropolis and Parthenon in Athens and The London Eye, among many others.

Click here to be part of the global lights out.


March 22 is World Water Day

World Water Day is an international day of observance and action to draw attention to the plight of the more than 1 billion people around the world that lack access to clean, safe drinking water.

Click here to see all the ways you can help bring this day to the forefront of the world's attention.


More than 1 Million Participate in Friends of Live Earth
More than 5,000 schools in India recently held events via our Friends of Live Earth program. More than one million youths participated in events held in the the cities and surrounding areas of Delhi, Bangalore, Mumbai and many more. The kids enthusiastically participated in various school activities, writing essays, eco-quiz, art competition, watching the screening of Inconvenient Truth and many cleaning-up-environment activities.

Click here to see photos from Friends of Live Earth India.

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Too good to be true? Again?

It's been more than a year since I wrote and almost 2 years of singlehood. Not sure why I've stopped writing and am at an even bigger lost why love hasn't happened to me...

Was it the way you smile
Or how you spotted me from a mile
The way you looked at me
Or that future you said you see

It could not have been that perfect
Shouldn't the process be more complexed?
Knowing all those odds against me
Should have locked my heart and threw the keys

"One year from now I'll marry you
something which I didn't know"
To a stranger you said in foreign tone
But all I'm left is a silent phone

Now with an almost broken heart
I wish I've not met you
I should have listened to the golden rules
That you are just too good to be true.




2 years of singlehood is a long time for me. Friends are always around but nothing beats having a loved one where you can come home to or ring up when shit happens.

So the reason for not falling in love? Heartbreak is a very strange distress. It is exquisitely painful, and yet we cannot find an injury on our body. It is like one big emotional pain but it also seems to spark off hundreds of other emotions. We hate the feeling of heartbreak, and yet we find ourselves compelled to go over and over memories, ideas or fantasies which make the feeling worse.

Though of cos love sometimes hurt. The small dissapointments of a crush or infatuation is easy to tackle with a drink session or some sun but when you think you've met the special someone and things turn out otherwise, it takes a serious toll.

Naively, I've just fell for it again. Met Mr Perfect and spent just 1 night having that special connection and now, wondering if all that was just another bullshit since we are so far apart.

Will this really be too good to be true? Wish I knew the answer now. Then at least I'll be able to cry over it and move on instead of sitting, wondering and suffocating.

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Have an Exotic Merry Christmas!

For the first time in my life, I had to shop for and wrap close to 40 gifts, all individually hand-picked. Out of all of them, my favourite gift sent was the one in my office gift exchange... :D

Apparently, this poor boy was sabotaged by a fellow colleague and wrote on his wishing star that he wished for: Exotic Durex products worth $15. This unlucky boy was picked by me...

Here's what I bought: 1 Full Body Condom (don't even ask me what it's for or how to use it please), 1 NEW Durex Pleasure Max warming condom (not tried this either) and a condom lollipop with Santa's face on it.

Placed the stuff in a clear zip lock bag, tied a ribbon that will attract attention and topped it off with a postcard with a mouse in a condom and wrote: Poor boy, hope this helps!

Wah ha ha ha... *Evil laughter* It was the first gift my boss picked up and handed out!

Check out the pix!!!

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Me the Aries

Having not much to do at work is one of the most common culprit for FAD - 'Facebook Addiction Disorder'. Sitting in the office for an average of 8 hours a day, I have been diligently checking in on my Facebook activities to see if anyone smacked or poked me, or take the latest similarity test.

Was reading one of my friends page when I came across this on her 'Wall':

"k people i know this is a chain letter but just read it!

This is the real deal. Try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice
is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there."


ARIES - The Aggressive

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an Aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be 'Right'. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Being an Aries is so convenient as we are the first horoscope sign, we take up the 1st paragraph too :) Unfortunately in this case, it also meant that I am suppose to forward that 'Wall' to 16 other people! Are they mad? I'm happy with what I read and that's probably about it. Ms Tang here ain't gonna SPAM my friends with chain mails... I don't believe in them so there will be NO bad luck for me... wah ha ha ha

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Genius advertisment

This ad is amazing! Confusing in the beginning as you wonder where its heading but at the end of the ad, extremely strong message put across. Genius!

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